New Blog

www.jenmcd13.vox.com

Any updates will be posted there. I'm not just going to focus on my (unsuccessful) weight loss efforts, but on whatever enters my pretty little head!

See you there, and Happy New Year!

11.22.08

Except for yesterday, my eating this week has been pretty good. Yesterday was a mini-binge kind of day.

Strangely, Wednesday and Thursday I wasn't all that hungry, so I didn't eat that much.

Thursday night, I noticed I wanted to eat, even though I wasn't hungry, just because I knew food was in the fridge. But I waited it out, and didn't eat anymore, and eventually I just went to bed. I think I was able to do that because I didn't resist the urge to eat just because it was there Wednesday night. I was comfortably full, but Sean had ordered pizza. So I ate one piece. Not much, but I was physically miserable, and disappointed in myself as well. So I think I was able to apply that on Thursday night.

11.16.08

My daytime eating has been pretty good. My evening eating has not been. Usually by the time I get home I'm stressed out, tired, and don't want to think. But that is when I'm going to have to think the most.

I've been in a pretty pissy mood all week and haven't worked out because I haven't wanted to. I blame it on PMS, the full moon, and whatever else I can think of.

I have eaten pretty well today. And I did something really good and un-Jenny like this evening. I was actually hungry and wanted a snack. I had set out the port wine cheese spread earlier in the evening to come to room temp. I got out four Aldi's brand Club type crackers and spread cheese on them. I didn't bring the whole tub to my computer and eat mindlessly. Progress.

11.12.08

My eating has been up and down the last few days. Typical for me.

I didn't exercise on Monday; I was coming down with a cold and was tired and whiny and didn't feel like it. Tuesday, I did my 4 flights of stairs. Today I was off work, but I went to visit a friend at ISU and had to park 4 blocks away to get free parking, so I did get some walking in. In the rain. That must burn off extra calories, right?

I tested my blood sugar on Monday morning, it was 117. Moving in the right direction.

11.7.08

Just got done doing my 4 flights of stairs and 20 wall push-ups. I think I'll try to find something else to do next week. Have I mentioned that I really hate climbing stairs?

Took the day off yesterday. On Wednesday, I did my stairs, but no weights when I got home. I did some stretching, however.

Eating Wednesday night was terrible. Better by a little yesterday. Today, not too bad. However, it has been a HORRENDOUS day at work, and I really want to medicate with food tonight. Not sure if I want to try to fight it off or not, to be honest.

11.05.08

I didn't want to do stairs today. I'm tired; I stayed up too late watching election results and speeches. But, I bucked up and did them anyway. One flight when I got to work this morning, and 3 more flights just now. UGH. I really hate climbing stairs. But it's done, and I feel virtuous because of it.

My blood sugar was 123 this morning. I've decided to reduce the amount of bread I eat. I eat WAY too much bread. I'm going to eat my normal amount at breakfast, which is either 2 slices or a whole bagel, but eat half as much any other time. Which means open face sandwiches or sandwiches on 1 slice folded over, or 1 slice of bread and butter or garlic bread. This should help both my blood sugar and my weight.

Like I said, I'm tired. I may or may not do any weights tonight. We'll see what the evening brings.

11.4.08

My goals were the same today as yesterday; 4 flights of stairs and 20 wall push-ups half way there. And I achieved my goal again today! My triceps are really sore today, so tomorrow I will so something else with weights; probably biceps curls and overhead press. And my 4 flights of stairs. Ugh. I really hate climbing stairs. But it is free, and I can do it at lunch, which is when I'm most likely to work out. So for now, it's my exercise of choice. Again, Ugh.

Eating was not so great. Evening, as always, is my hardest time. I have been taking my metformin consistently the last week, though. I'll test my blood sugar again tomorrow morning and see if the trend is coming down. Fasting last week was 121, down from 126 the week before.

11.3.08

I haven't posted in a while, so you know how things have been going.

I'm setting 2 goals today; one for today, and one for the month. I want to lose 4 lbs this month. Yes, I know Thanksgiving is at the end of the month, but that is 3 weeks away. I think I can do it. The goal for today is to climb 4 flights of stairs, and when I stop half way to do 20 wall push-ups. I usually start with 2 flights of stairs when I start this again, but that is the norm for me. Four will push me. I need to push.

Check in with you later.

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It's later.

357.2

I did my stairs and push ups. And had reasonable portions most of the day. Overall, a successful day.

10.16.08

Going to bed a little hungry tonight, and my rings feel loose and spin easily on my finger. Good signs both, I think.

I weighed on Wednesday, but didn't like what I saw, so I didn't post it. My blog, my rules!

Went to a family run Italian joint for dinner tonight. We split an antipasto platter, of which we brought about half home, both had salads and crunchy bread sticks, and split an entree. Brought a little of the pasta home, too. Felt pretty good about supper both price-wise and eating-wise.

10.6.08

357.7

Down 3.4 lbs in a 5 days. Pretty happy with that.

I didn't do stairs on Friday. I had a bad charlie horse situation in my left calf, and it was so sore Friday I was limping every time I got up from my desk.

Saturday, I walked the 1 mile celebration/fun walk for the Komen Race for the Cure. I didn't drink much water before, and walked at a little faster pace than usual, and got a little sick afterward. Felt woozy, and had some dry heaves. One of my endo nurses was there and got me a cold water bottle for my neck, and I rested and felt better. Sean was great, too. He was proud of me for not panicking.

Sunday, we walked for about 20 minutes. I drank lots of water before we went. I felt fine.

Portions went pretty well except for last night. I did have fruit Saturday and today.

I'm still working on my issue of wanting to lose weight but not wanting to work for it. There's some spiritual stuff tied up in that as well. I'll get there, I just don't know when.

10.2.08

Well, portions were better at breakfast and lunch, but dinner was still too big. And too much frustration snacking on Hersey Nuggets. And no fruit, unless you count the cherries in a small slice of cherry pie. ;)

The successes, though, are that I did get my 2 flights of stairs in, and my portions were better on 2 out of 3 meals.

Tomorrow: 2 flights of stairs, actual fruit, reasonable portions.

BTW, I was hoping the vice-presidential debate would be a huge train wreck. I thought there was great comic potential with these 2 candidates. But alas, they both seem to have prepared pretty well.

10.01.08 x 2

So here is one of my problems. Just before I typed my last post, I was hungry, so I had a snack. No problem. But now I'm not hungry anymore, but I want to keep eating. I enjoy the sensation; I enjoy the activity. But I'm not hungry anymore. So I'm going to stay on the computer a while longer in effort not to eat anything else.

10.1.08

361.1

I'm starting again today. I did better with my portions, and only ate when hungry. I actually ate a piece of fruit, too!

Rough plan for tomorrow: Another serving of fruit. Moderate portions. At least 2 flights of stairs.

I go to the doctor for my work-mandated physical, which my annual apparently did not count for, on the 22nd, and I want to see how much I can lose by then. And I was going to type that I'm only gonna weigh once a week, but we all know better than that.

9/14/08

354.6

First time I've seen a number below 355 for awhile, and I'm happy about that.

I did not lose enough weight to fit into the Colts shirt. However, I decided I didn't want to give it away, so I had it altered. It looks pretty good, too. I'll take a pic and get it posted soon.

I've actually gone on a couple of walks in the last 2 weeks. Doesn't sound like much, but considering I've been pretty much sedentary the entire summer, it is progress. Next week-end, with my Fit Chix group at church, I'll be going to Zumba. I'll keep you posted about that.

8.6.08

360

Bummer. It's only 1.4 lb up over last week, but still... I've got to start going in the right direction.

I bailed on Shauna for Zumba. Sorry Shauna :( I stayed up too late last night, again, and am too tired. Of course, if I got more sleep, I would have more energy to exercise, and would probably not eat as much, because I'd have more energy. It's a vicious, stupid cycle. I'll try to get to Zumba next week and report back.

I did get my stairs in at lunch.

8.5.08

I'm listening to an 80's CD my friend Jeff made for me. The 80's rawk!

Eating has been better most of yesterday, and definitely today.

One of my goals this week is to climb at least 2 flights of stairs each day. So far, I have. And I plan to go to Zumba w/Shauna tomorrow after work. I'll probably get my butt kicked, but in a fun way!

Weigh in is tomorrow; I'll post it and about Zumba.

7.27.08

It's been a pretty undisciplined couple of weeks, although I have eaten better the last 2 days. I spoke with Rebecca, my health educator from my insurance, and I ran into Jean, the doctor who is running the study I participated in at ISU, and both occasions have kind of embarassed me into working harder. Not thru any fault of theirs; I just feel like I have let them down. But that's all about me, not anything they've done. Maybe I can use my neurosis to work for good!

I bought some individual packs of cottage cheese, and some cheese curd. It was cheaper than string cheese at the store I was at, and I can make my own packages up. I boiled some eggs, too. All of these things will be handy snacks at work. Easy to eat, and not carby.

Got a lot of exercise Saturday toting stuff out to the car and into Hulman center. At least it felt like a lot; I am so out of shape. I meant to do something today, but I was really enjoying a lazy day; it was a really busy week last week. I want to go to Zumba with my friend Shauna sometime soon. She really enjoys it, and it sounds like fun.

I'm switching my anti-depressant med, that I take for generalized anxiety disorder, from Zoloft to Pristiq. It works on both serotonin and norepinephrine, the latter of which is supposed to give you more energy. I could use that. Maybe it will help motivate me to exercise. The info says that one of the side effects is loss of appetite. That would rock!

7.20.08

353.3 as of 7.17

Should have posted this a few days ago, but I've been busy cross stitching a bib for my niece's baby shower.

Eating has been pretty carby the last few days. Not sure if it's because it's TOM, or just that I've been lazy.

Gotta go pay bills...

7.14.08

Eating was a bit better today. Proper portions for breakfast, lunch, and morning snack. For an afternoon snack, I had a chicken salad sandwich leftover from lunch. I would have been satisfied with half of it, but of course, I ate all of it. But here's the good part. I usually would go home and eat (another) dinner with Sean. But he was hungry right after work, and I wasn't, so he went to Subway. I waited awhile after we got home, and at about 1/2 a cucumber with some french onion dip. So it ended up being kinda balanced.

I had a meeting for church over desert at Cracker Barrel tonight. I had a root beer float made with diet Stewart's root beer and no sugar added ice cream. The ice cream pretty much cancelled out the diet taste of the root beer, and it was a guilt free treat! Then when I got home, I was hungry, so I had 2 slices of cheese and 5 slices of pre-cooked bacon. A good, high protein snack.

So I feel like things evened out today. I'm happy that I didn't use one bad choice as an excuse to blow the rest of the evening.

7.13.08

Happy Birthday to Me!

I have indulged some in the last few days, but it hasn't been an entire day-long indulgence any day. Thursday was a carb-o-lishous lunch, and Friday night was bunco, which is always an eating-fest. Yesterday, my only splurge was a thin-mint blizzard, which was TOTALLY worth it! And tonight I had a double cheeseburger fixed by my DH for my birthday dinner, and a brownie w/mini Reese's cups and ice cream for my birthday desert. So I have indulged, but I haven't felt out of control. I think it has helped that I've not used it as an excuse to eat lousy all day, just part of the day. I'll weigh again on Wednesday and see how I've done.