First, the good news. I brought my cholesterol down to 212 from 236! Dr says to keep up the low fat diet, and we'll check again in 6 months.
However, I gained 3 lbs, to 345.1.
I was doing really well with eating today. Ate slowly, ate when I was hungry. At dinner, Sean cooked fabulous pork chops, and I took my time to eat. Then, around 9:30, after trying to talk myself out of it for a while, I decided that I was hungry, and ate 2 leftover sandwiched from Panera that I brought home from work.
I know what I need to do to lose weight. Why can't I make myself do it? Why does it have to be so hard? Is it because so many other things come easily to me, that I don't know how to work for something? It's just so frustrating. It seems like I should just be able to eat less. I don't want to look like this forever. I want the outside of my body to match what I see inside. AAUUUGGHH!!!
Friday, April 28, 2006
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
4/25/06
I've had some good days and some bad days in the last week. I weighed in at 1/2 lower last Friday, 342.4. I've felt in control of my eating yesterday and today. Exercise has been pretty good. Walked about 1.5 miles Saturday, on a beautiful morning w/Sean. Walked at Dobbs Park last night w/Sean, and had salad for dinner. Did 1 flight of stairs today, upper body workout, and 100 crunches of varying types today. Salad for lunch. BBQ chicken and olive oil & dill potatoes for dinner.
I get my cholesterol checked tomorrow. I'll post results as soon as I have them. I hope it is down. I think it will be.
I get my cholesterol checked tomorrow. I'll post results as soon as I have them. I hope it is down. I think it will be.
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
4/18/06
Well, ate too much this week-end, didn't exercise much (although directing in both church services Sunday was quite a work out!), and still lost. 342.9 when I weighed in today.
I walked today, about 3/4 mile. I will go to class tomorrow, since it is supposed to rain. If it doesn't, I might walk again. I want to take advantage of the nice weather. I'll go back inside when it gets hotter.
I walked today, about 3/4 mile. I will go to class tomorrow, since it is supposed to rain. If it doesn't, I might walk again. I want to take advantage of the nice weather. I'll go back inside when it gets hotter.
Thursday, April 13, 2006
4/13/06
Today, not as good, and by choice. I did okay at work, and even after work. Sean had ordered pizza, and had left 3 pieces for me. Not terrible, if that was all I ate. But then, while watching tv, I decided I wanted a Skinny Cow ice cream sandwich. And then a potato chip sandwich. And then 2 rows of Peeps. I think I was bored, tired, influenced by cheese burgers on Survivor, and celebrating extra days off from work.
I'm not going to come down too hard on myself. I'm going to try to examine why I'm making poor eating choices. If I record them here, maybe I can stop the cycle.
I'm not going to come down too hard on myself. I'm going to try to examine why I'm making poor eating choices. If I record them here, maybe I can stop the cycle.
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
4/12/06
I've done well today, for the most part. The only thing I've eaten that was not good for me was 4 caramel filled chocolate candies.
Tone and tighten was cancelled due to lack of teacher, so I did an upper body workout.
In my devotions this morning, I found a really encouraging passage:
10So here's what I think: The best thing you can do right now is to finish what you started last year and not let those good intentions grow stale. 11Your heart's been in the right place all along. You've got what it takes to finish it up, so go to it. 12Once the commitment is clear, you do what you can, not what you can't. The heart regulates the hands.
II Corinthians 8:10-12, The Message
That really helped me focus today. Do what I can, not what I can't. If God thinks I have what it takes to finish what I started, then I can!
Tone and tighten was cancelled due to lack of teacher, so I did an upper body workout.
In my devotions this morning, I found a really encouraging passage:
10So here's what I think: The best thing you can do right now is to finish what you started last year and not let those good intentions grow stale. 11Your heart's been in the right place all along. You've got what it takes to finish it up, so go to it. 12Once the commitment is clear, you do what you can, not what you can't. The heart regulates the hands.
II Corinthians 8:10-12, The Message
That really helped me focus today. Do what I can, not what I can't. If God thinks I have what it takes to finish what I started, then I can!
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
4/11/06
Well, today went better. I watched my portions carefully, even at dinner. We went for Thai, and I probably ate a little too much of my Pad Thai, but not by much. Sean bought some Reese's Bites for desert, and I had only 4. A serving is aproximately 16. The 4 had roughly 55 calories and 3 g fat. I exercised portion control. I feel better about myself tonight.
I walked at lunch again today. Walked yesterday, too, then did yard work. I will go to tone and tighten class tomorrow at lunch. Thursday, I'm going to lunch w/girlfriends, and might walk that evening, or do some weights and abs. Not sure what I'll do Friday; might go the the park and walk if it is nice, since I have the day off. Or might wait to see if Sean wants to walk.
I think it might help if I try to get on here more often, even if I don't write much. I said I wanted a place to be honest. I guess that should include bad days, too.
I walked at lunch again today. Walked yesterday, too, then did yard work. I will go to tone and tighten class tomorrow at lunch. Thursday, I'm going to lunch w/girlfriends, and might walk that evening, or do some weights and abs. Not sure what I'll do Friday; might go the the park and walk if it is nice, since I have the day off. Or might wait to see if Sean wants to walk.
I think it might help if I try to get on here more often, even if I don't write much. I said I wanted a place to be honest. I guess that should include bad days, too.
Monday, April 10, 2006
4/10/06
Weighed last Friday. Down .1 lb. I don't think that really counts.
I do pretty well with my eating at work, but at home, I just eat way too much. Ate too much tonight, too. I'll keep trying. It's kinda discouraging. I feel like I just don't have enough will power or desire. I want to lose weight, but I don't want to work for it. I do well, then beat myself up. That's a bad cycle. How do I break it?
I do pretty well with my eating at work, but at home, I just eat way too much. Ate too much tonight, too. I'll keep trying. It's kinda discouraging. I feel like I just don't have enough will power or desire. I want to lose weight, but I don't want to work for it. I do well, then beat myself up. That's a bad cycle. How do I break it?
Saturday, April 01, 2006
4/1/06
It's been over 2 weeks since I last wrote. Wonder why that is? I've been off on a FABULOUS vacation in France!
April Fool's!
Really, I've been eating poorly and not working out much. Last time I weighed I was at 344.9. We've had carry-in's at work, and I've just not felt like working out. Probably because I've been making poor eating choices. It's a vicious circle.
But back up on the horse again. I have made very good choices all day today. I went to bed last night thinking I'd have oatmeal for breakfast. Start out right, and see how much weight I can lose in the next 2 weeks before Easter and before I get a shorter hair cut. But, when I got up, I was not in the mood for oatmeal. I did see 2 snack sized bags of potato chips, and thought I might have a potato chips sandwich. But then I would feel really bad about myself. Not a good way to start the day. Plus, I was going shopping later and didn't want to feel fatter. I looked in the freezer and found the Aldi's version of lean pockets, Southwestern Veggie, and it made a fine breakfast. Only 5g of fat; low cal, too. I had 2 T of sour cream with it, too. I continued to make good choices the rest of the day, down to the Aldi's version of a Skinny Cow ice cream sandwich (130 cal, 1.5g fat) that I just had for desert.
I got a cute skirt at Fashion Bug, both for Easter and a wedding I'm going to attend this summer. I got a tee and a tank to wear with it. The tee is a little bit snug right now, which is part of the see how much I can lose in 2 weeks thing. Plus, with the shorter hair, I'd like to lose some more chin.
April Fool's!
Really, I've been eating poorly and not working out much. Last time I weighed I was at 344.9. We've had carry-in's at work, and I've just not felt like working out. Probably because I've been making poor eating choices. It's a vicious circle.
But back up on the horse again. I have made very good choices all day today. I went to bed last night thinking I'd have oatmeal for breakfast. Start out right, and see how much weight I can lose in the next 2 weeks before Easter and before I get a shorter hair cut. But, when I got up, I was not in the mood for oatmeal. I did see 2 snack sized bags of potato chips, and thought I might have a potato chips sandwich. But then I would feel really bad about myself. Not a good way to start the day. Plus, I was going shopping later and didn't want to feel fatter. I looked in the freezer and found the Aldi's version of lean pockets, Southwestern Veggie, and it made a fine breakfast. Only 5g of fat; low cal, too. I had 2 T of sour cream with it, too. I continued to make good choices the rest of the day, down to the Aldi's version of a Skinny Cow ice cream sandwich (130 cal, 1.5g fat) that I just had for desert.
I got a cute skirt at Fashion Bug, both for Easter and a wedding I'm going to attend this summer. I got a tee and a tank to wear with it. The tee is a little bit snug right now, which is part of the see how much I can lose in 2 weeks thing. Plus, with the shorter hair, I'd like to lose some more chin.
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