7.27.08

It's been a pretty undisciplined couple of weeks, although I have eaten better the last 2 days. I spoke with Rebecca, my health educator from my insurance, and I ran into Jean, the doctor who is running the study I participated in at ISU, and both occasions have kind of embarassed me into working harder. Not thru any fault of theirs; I just feel like I have let them down. But that's all about me, not anything they've done. Maybe I can use my neurosis to work for good!

I bought some individual packs of cottage cheese, and some cheese curd. It was cheaper than string cheese at the store I was at, and I can make my own packages up. I boiled some eggs, too. All of these things will be handy snacks at work. Easy to eat, and not carby.

Got a lot of exercise Saturday toting stuff out to the car and into Hulman center. At least it felt like a lot; I am so out of shape. I meant to do something today, but I was really enjoying a lazy day; it was a really busy week last week. I want to go to Zumba with my friend Shauna sometime soon. She really enjoys it, and it sounds like fun.

I'm switching my anti-depressant med, that I take for generalized anxiety disorder, from Zoloft to Pristiq. It works on both serotonin and norepinephrine, the latter of which is supposed to give you more energy. I could use that. Maybe it will help motivate me to exercise. The info says that one of the side effects is loss of appetite. That would rock!

7.20.08

353.3 as of 7.17

Should have posted this a few days ago, but I've been busy cross stitching a bib for my niece's baby shower.

Eating has been pretty carby the last few days. Not sure if it's because it's TOM, or just that I've been lazy.

Gotta go pay bills...

7.14.08

Eating was a bit better today. Proper portions for breakfast, lunch, and morning snack. For an afternoon snack, I had a chicken salad sandwich leftover from lunch. I would have been satisfied with half of it, but of course, I ate all of it. But here's the good part. I usually would go home and eat (another) dinner with Sean. But he was hungry right after work, and I wasn't, so he went to Subway. I waited awhile after we got home, and at about 1/2 a cucumber with some french onion dip. So it ended up being kinda balanced.

I had a meeting for church over desert at Cracker Barrel tonight. I had a root beer float made with diet Stewart's root beer and no sugar added ice cream. The ice cream pretty much cancelled out the diet taste of the root beer, and it was a guilt free treat! Then when I got home, I was hungry, so I had 2 slices of cheese and 5 slices of pre-cooked bacon. A good, high protein snack.

So I feel like things evened out today. I'm happy that I didn't use one bad choice as an excuse to blow the rest of the evening.

7.13.08

Happy Birthday to Me!

I have indulged some in the last few days, but it hasn't been an entire day-long indulgence any day. Thursday was a carb-o-lishous lunch, and Friday night was bunco, which is always an eating-fest. Yesterday, my only splurge was a thin-mint blizzard, which was TOTALLY worth it! And tonight I had a double cheeseburger fixed by my DH for my birthday dinner, and a brownie w/mini Reese's cups and ice cream for my birthday desert. So I have indulged, but I haven't felt out of control. I think it has helped that I've not used it as an excuse to eat lousy all day, just part of the day. I'll weigh again on Wednesday and see how I've done.

7.09.08

354

Down 1.5 lbs since Monday. WooHoo!

I'm not in a very good mood, and I'm obsessive, and I want to go eat. But I had dinner, probably too much. I am not at all hungry. DH & I split an order of mushrooms and hot wings at Moggers. Yeah, I know batter dipped and deep fried mushrooms aren't exactly low carb, but my portion was appropriate. And the wings were not breaded. I was really jonesing for some ice cream, but all we have is regular at home, and I wanted sugar-free. So I had 2 chocolate coins. Yes, sugar, but again in appropriate amounts. It could have been a lot worse. So I called my friend Shauna to discuss my obsessing, and I feel better. And I know the other things bothering me from work are more about my perspective than reality. And I know it will all pass. So I'm blogging to avoid eating. And I have a really good book to read when I'm done, I Shall Not Want by Julia Spencer-Fleming. Plus, Baby Borrowers is on tonight, and She's Got the Look, and I have an ep of Whose Wedding Is It Anyway DVR'd, so I have plenty to distract me.

7.7.08

355.5

Well, I know it's only one day, but so far so good. 2.6 lbs down from my last recorded weigh-in. And it got higher than that in the week before vacay. I hit an all-time high, and I don't really want to tell you what that was. It was just very nice to weigh less after vacay than before.

Maybe it's all the sleep I got last week, or maybe fewer carbs, but I wasn't as sluggish today. I had my usual 1 can of diet pop (diet Code Red rawks!), but no Vitalert.

The lack of discipline seems to be the root of most of my problems in life. So for this week I have set 3 goals:

1) Devotions every evening before I get too sleepy.
2) Getting ready for work on time.
3) Eating proper portions.

I'm not a morning person. Morning devotions do not work for me. I'm not giving God or anyone else my best in the morning. And if I do my devotions in the evening, then it prepares me for the next day.

I frustrate my DH constantly with my dilly-dallying around in the morning. I'm always running late. So I need to change this for both me and him.

That's how today went. We'll take it one day at a time, and see how tomorrow goes.

7.6.2008

Hope you all had a great Independence Day! We had a cook-out with a few friends, and ate way too much.

I've been on vacay the past week, and my eating has alternated between bad and good. Inspired by my friend Shauna, I'm going to try fewer carbs, more protein. I'm not eliminating carbs all together, or even doing Atkins, just trying to limit my consumption. My fasting blood sugar from my blood work last month is evidence that it is not a bad idea. All my other blood work was good, though.

I'm going to try to eat most of my carbs early in the day, to get the kindling effect. I've prepared some snacks to keep in the fridge so I don't immediately go to the easy, carby pre-packaged snacks. That being said, there is still ice cream in the house. So if I have any of that, I need to control my portion. Two months left to get into that pink jersey...