12/11/09

I was kinda beating up on myself during my devotional time this morning. This is the scripture I journaled on:

14-16Now that we know what we have—Jesus, this great High Priest with ready access to God—let's not let it slip through our fingers. We don't have a priest who is out of touch with our reality. He's been through weakness and testing, experienced it all—all but the sin. So let's walk right up to him and get what he is so ready to give. Take the mercy, accept the help.

Hebrews 4:14-16 (Message)

Jesus had food issues? I have a hard time imagining that. Perhaps the temptation and weakness that is like me is doubting that God will supply his needs. Will God supply more of whatever yummy food is calling my name, or should I just go ahead and gobble it all up now? So I need to work on trusting God that there will be more food when I want it. Eat just what I'm hungry for. Stop when I'm full. So much easier said than done.

I have decided to change my goal for this month. I will be content with maintaining my current weight. Good or bad, food is a huge part of holiday celebrations, and I want to stop being concerned with "good" and "bad" eating. I have beat myself up long enough; it is not productive. I will continue to work out, and try not to make a pig of myself, but I am going to enjoy myself, too. And guilt free, as best I can.

That being said, I did eat too much today. I've been feeling moody (PMS), and self-indulgent. Why does this all have to be so hard?

I did work out today. Two sets 15 each of seated chest press, bicep curls, triceps extensions, bent over flys, shoulder press and lower back extension.