10/6/07

343

Consistently down the last 2 weeks. I am pleased. Some the the stuff in Scale Down must be sticking. It was a little overwhelming at first, because I want to do everything right, all at once. But I can't. And Danna emphasises doing a few things well and consistently to make lasting changes. Once you get those down, add something else.

Sean and I did Race for the Cure this morning. We did the 1 mile fun walk. It was HOT! But it is beautiful on the campus of St.Mary's. Lots of us from scale down did the walk. The leader of our group encouraged us to use this as a start to adding exercise to our routines. She is going to walk 2 more times before we meet next Thursday. I committed to exercising 2 more times as well. Might be walking or DDR, might be weights, or some combo.

9/29/07

The following was written 9/26:

344.7

Down a little bit. We have started a Bible Study group to study a book called Scale Down by Danna Demetre. She has no prescribed eating plan, but emphasises small changes over time that add up and make a change in lifestyle. The cover says "overcome bad habits, energize your lifestyle, renew your spirit, burn fat efficiently and lose weight for life!" Basically, replace your bad habits with good, change the way you think, and burn more calories that you take in. This week, we are working on 3 ways we can decrease the amount we eat, and 3 ways we can increase our activity. I've done better on the activity than the eating. One of my goals is no second helpings, but that is so hard for me. I did manage to achieve it yesterday. My other 2 eating goals are sugar free mints and gum, and more fruits and veggies. I've done better with my physical goals. I have climbed at least 1 flight of stairs each day, I am doing calf raises at the credit card machine, and parking farther away. Our group meets again on Thursday night.

9/29

Intentionally, willfully overate last night. But, it was just one meal, and I have not used it as an excuse to overeat today. As a matter of fact, I made a couple of really good choices today in not eating large quantities.

I am finding myself being a little resistant to change. Here's what I wrote in an e-mail to the other Scale Down Chix:

I seem to be finding that I am a little resistant to making changes. I know what is right to do, but am being a bit of a rebellious brat in doing it. But, I think it is probably part of making the changes in mind-set and life-style. I will take a while, but I am confident that God will do it if I let him. He who began a good work in me (us!) will be faithful to complete it.

9/20/07

(this was all typed 9/19)

345.5

UGH! Hopefully it is because I will start my period this week, but I suspect not. I have been feeling more in control of my eating the last few days, except for supper last night. We ate very late, and I was really hungry, so I ate too much. I had a second, huge serving of lasagna. Other than that, I met my goals for yesterday, although I changed a couple of them. I ate 2 servings of fruit, drank 80 oz of water, and worked out. But my knee was sore for some reason, so instead of walking or DDR, I did weights. 3 sets of 15 each of bicep curls, triceps extensions, shoulder press and butterflies. 10 lbs for the bicep and triceps, and 5 for the shoulders and butterflies.

Goals for today: 80 oz of water, NO SECOND HELPINGS, 2 servings of fruit, 4 flights of stairs.

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9/20

Well, I got in the water, the stairs, and 1 serving of fruit. Had seconds, although split over the course of 3 hours or so, and WAY too much ice cream. Evenings remain my hardest time of the day to not over eat.

See that fish up there going backwards? That's me! :(

Goals for today: 80 oz water, 2 servings fruit, NO SECONDS!!!!!

9/17/07

Goals for today: 80 oz water, no second helpings, 4 flights of stairs, a banana and some applesauce. All met except the water, and that will be met before I go to bed.

My friend Kim did the stairs with me. I had to stop twice, but that is just fine. The sad part is that I was a little sore this morning from my short walk yesterday!

Goals for tomorrow: 80 oz water, no second helpings, a banana, applesauce, 20 minute walk or 20 minutes of DDR.

9/16/07

I finally watched the first ep of Biggest Loser that I had dvr'ed last night. And inspired by it, I made some goals for today. I have: walked for 20 minutes, eaten 2 servings of fruit, and had no secondhelpings. I am 60 oz into my 80 oz of water, and will have Sean help me do my measurements later tonight. That will get everything on my list accomplished. I'll make a new list for tomorrow. Two things that will remain consistent are 80 oz of water and no second helpings.

9/14/07

My friends MaryAnn and Chuck came over last night, and we did DDR. We had a ball! I figure I danced for 15-20 minutes all together. Not a lot, but more exercise than most nights.

9/12/07

340

Pretty much the same as last week. I'm okay with that. The scales I weigh on back in the endo department were digital; today they had been replace by traditional doctor's scales. I don't really think that made any difference in my weight.

We mowed the yard yesterday, so I did get some exercise. I may be doing DDR with girlfriend tomorrow night. Yeah, I know I could do it by myself, but honestly, I probably won't.

On a completely different subject, I made a FABULOUS cover for my wrist rest at work. My skin kinda stuck to it, so I got this gorgeous silky fabric in the remnant bin at Hobby Lobby. I had some left over, so I made 2 memo boards for my walls. Really brightens up the horse stall! (If you saw my office, you'd understand. The desks are set up for patient privacy. Privacy isn't achieved, but we feel like we have stalls.)

PS--My girlfriend Shauna sent me the "Smart is the new Skinny" magnet for one of my 40th b-day presents. Love it!!!!

9/5/07

339.2

Not as hideous as I expected. And I've made pretty good food choices for most of the day. Perhaps not the most nutritious, but portion-wise, pretty good.

9/4/07

Last night I read a scripture that rocked my world.

8-10 "'But they rebelled against me, wouldn't listen to a word I said. None got rid of the vile things they were addicted to. They held on to the no-gods of Egypt as if for dear life. I seriously considered inflicting my anger on them in force right there in Egypt. Then I thought better of it. I acted out of who I was, not by how I felt. And I acted in a way that would evoke honor, not blasphemy, from the nations around them, nations who had seen me reveal myself by promising to lead my people out of Egypt. And then I did it: I led them out of Egypt into the desert.

Ezekiel 20:8-10, The Message

I acted out of who I was, not by how I felt. WOW! If I can get a handle on that verse, and actually live it out, it is going to make a difference not only in my eating, but my entire life. I'm a little hesitant to post this on here, because I try so many things and fail. But at least I'm trying. I haven't given up. And by posting here I can have some accountability.

I want to do some further study inspired by this verse. I'm going to research who I am in Christ; list some scriptures to remind myself of who I am and to whom I belong. And I do want to act in a way that brings honor to the God I claim to serve.

So, all that being said, I paid more attention to my eating today, and did will most of the day, except for a too large afternoon snack. But progress, not perfection. I certainly did better that yesterday. I will weigh in tomorrow, and I expect to be horrified by the results. But I'll post them anyhow.

8/24/07

I've realized that I'm in an "I don't care" mode right now, and that's just going to have to be okay. I'm hovering around the same weight, eating too much and not exercising. When I start eating right again and exercising, the weight will come off again. But for right now, this is where I am.

8/20/07

338.5 on 8/16.

I was right about the bump being from eating so late.

8/15/07

342

Okay, I said I was going to be honest even if I didn't like what I saw. I and DEFINITELY didn't like what I saw this morning. Or how I felt. And I wasn't going to post. But, here I am.

I ate supper early last night, so I was hungry again late, and I ate again. Which probably (hopefully) explains the big jump. I am going to weigh again tomorrow. I ate better portions today. I really need to work some exercise in. I did weed-eating yesterday, and planned to mow my half of the yard, but the mower broke. We just borrowed my friend's boy and mower tonight, as it was much hotter and very humid.

8/11/07

338.9

Down 1.7 since Wed. So much for trying not to weigh every day! And I find it kinda funny that when I am up 1 lb, I can discount it, but when I lose 1 or 2, it's a triumph!

Had planned over-eating last night. I was called to be a sub at Bunco (woo-hoo!), and if you've never played, it's all about the food and fellowship. You kinda have to pick up some food each time you go by the food table. I at reasonably all day, and didn't eat supper, so it would help off set the bunco abundance. And this morning, started back in on reasonable portions and eating only when hungry. I'm going to a cook out tomorrow afternoon, and the plan is to eat a little of each thing that I'd like, but not a ton of anything.

8/8/07

340.6

About what I expected. I think it is mostly due to the salt last night. I am going to try very hard not to weigh until next Wednesday. I don't need to obsess with the scale. My eating has been good today. Appropriate portions. Only when hungry. I'm having a salad from TGI Friday's for lunch, the Asian Glazed Chicken on Field Greens.

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The salad was quite yummy. The cilantro lime dressing was spicy. I also had some tortilla chips and spinach dip. Reasonable portion. Didn't feel stuffed, just full.

For dinner, I did eat too much. Well, dessert, actually. I ate quite a big portion of key lime pie. But, it wasn't the whole day, just one meal. And, I wanted to get seconds on the chips and dip at lunch, but consciously chose not too. Progress, not perfection.

8/7/07

I kinda accidentally did well today at lunch, then went a little past pleasantly full. I ordered lunch from a pizza joint with the Pulmo drug rep, but had to go to lunch early and didn't know when my order would get here, so I ate from the other drug rep lunch. And I had a reasonable amount, and was satisfied. Then, my other order didn't come in. Which was just as well. But then I ate a little more at the end of my lunch hour. Just because it was there, free, and tasted good. I gotta stop doing that. I'm past full, but not stuffed and uncomfortable. At least, not physically. Mentally, yes. But still, I'm doing better than last week.

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The over eating continued in the evening. Had a snack at work I didn't really need. So I didn't snack when I got home from work. But then by the time I made supper, I was too hungry, and ate too much. Plus had quite a bit of salt, which doesn't bode well for my weigh in.

8/6/07

I did pretty well with my portions today. I thought about what I was eating, and how much. I feel pretty good about it. I didn't feel overly full after any occasion of eating, and with one exception, I only ate when hungry. The one exception was 1 piece of chocolate, a coconut creme. I stopped at one piece, and was satisfied.

I weighed, and am about the same as the last time I recorded my weight. Which makes me think that I had bumped up before I got sick. I'm going to resume my regular Wednesday weigh-ins, and start reporting faithfully again, good or bad.

8/3/07

Stayed home sick from work today with some stomach thing. Vomiting and diarrhea. Fun.

I've been eating WAY too much lately, and I'm going to try to use this as a new starting point. When I can eat again, I'm going to focus on eating when I'm hungry and stopping when I'm full again. Might as well make something good out of this!

7/25/07

Got all my water in. Mowed the front yard (hubby always does the back). Ate too much, but especially for my snack after work, was very mindful of and attentive to what I was eating. Really paid attention to and enjoyed the texture of the flat bread wraps I had w/some veggie dip.

Got weighed in and measured body fat for the weight loss study today. I'm going to wait for tomorrow to post weight, but my body fat percentage is 56.3%, and my BMI is 53.1. UGH!!! Nowhere to go but down from there!

7/24/07

Well, I got in my water. We put off yard work until tomorrow. And I ate way too much.

Tomorrow, I will get in my water, focus on eating mindfully and in reasonable amounts, and if we don't mow the yard, I'll do some weights & abs.

7/23--part 2

So far so good today. And since I'm getting ready to go to bed soon, I should be fine. Met my eating goals, need a little more water, and didn't exercise, as expected. Tomorrow, we are planning yard work.

We are having a snack-y carry-in at work tomorrow for one of the nurses last day. I'm making hummus, which will be pretty good for me. I am going to have small portions of the things I like. I am not going to eat food just because it is free and it is there. I have a choice.